however this weekend marks the first that the world has endured after the passing of michael jackson.
its been quite bitter sweet.
i spent the better part of this weekend with one of my bestest friends...missy...just hanging out and making the most of the girl time we havent had much of over the past couple of years. we watched movies...ate junk food...teased our kids...had some drinkersss...and had an amazing sunday funday bbq with the newly relocated matt, mary and baby bella who just moved back to town...cara and cavin who are possibly moving to town very soon (fingers crossed =])...becca, daniel, hayden and lily...rosie and ray...charisma and elijah!
one spirit that wasnt lost was that of michael jackson...he was on the radio...tributes on XM going nonstop...we blasted him in rays truck outside...we just listened to him through out the day...relentlessly trying to mimic his famous steps haha
it reminded me again that no matter all our differences...age, race, music preferences...that michael jackson will forever be responsible for bridging gaps, breaking barriers and bringing people together in a way no one has ever done before.i am still not sure how to process the loss of michael jackson...all i know is how i feel and all i can do is embrace the overwhelming emotions that have continuously been evoked by the news and tributes to him since news of his passing.
there is no question the impact michael had on the world. it never ceases to amaze me how influential that impact has been...and im not ashamed to admit that it easily brings me to tears over and over. anyone who knows me knows that dance is and has always been a strong driving force in who and what i am today. watching michael dance stirred up emotions in me that i cant bring myself to describe. its been said art is very emotional...therefore i believe its only an emotion i can express on the dance floor. i cant think about or look back on my childhood without thinking of him. i have vivid memories of watching thriller...listening to his music...dancing in the studio to his songs. there will never be another to grace a stage the way he did. we grew up with him...and for that im grateful.
for someone who has been told to have a gift for words...i find myself at a loss when trying to adequately express the effect michael has had on me through out my life. words fail me. i was never fortunate enough to meet this man or even see him perform in person... however there is no denying the profound influence he has had on me. michael had questionable behavior through out the years...but i never stopped believing in him. i will never think of him as anything but a gentle soul...however tortured...who i dont believe was anything but genuine. he was a talent like no other. i believe he endured things in his childhood that he was never able to overcome...that kept him in a childlike state. i dont believe he ever did anything with ill intention...on the contrary...i think he lived to better the lives of others in whatever way he knew how. there will never be another michael jackson. he will live on forever in music and in my heart. i feel blessed to have been able to witness the magnitude of his greatness through out my life. and tonight...i felt especially proud to share my memories of michael with my son.
elijah has never had much of an attention span for anything other than the likes of skating or video games
but i sense a genuine interest of his when he asks me about michael and listens to my never ending stories about him and the impact he continues to have on me. watching michael dance is nothing short of electric...it was magical. i mean....how epic is the moon walk. are you joking me! i can never forget how accomplished and proud i felt when i learned how to master that move he is and always will be one of my greatest inspirations. and i feel confident that my son understands my connection to music and dance when i speak of it.every now and again im reminded how powerful music is when my son and i bond over it. there really isnt anything better.
